Aishiteru

a passion that erupts in my body
every time you touch me
a captivating, mind blowing experience
words can not explain
so i ran from these feelings
and tucked them far away
I hid from this passion
& called you my friend
but every time we talked
my heart wanted to explode
& every time we hugged
my body disappeared into Ecstasy
my very little heaven on earth
now this passion inside me
contiunes to grow and grow
And I was not sure how much longer
I could hold it in & pretend
Now others are starting to notice the passion too
& speak upon some even speak upon it in front of you
but i laugh it off
& try to push the passion the aside
to that faithful night
where I asked
if you had the passion too
and with your simple yet complex reply
i wiped the tears from my eyes
and i'm relieved to find
you feel the exact same.
yet your not ready to act upon the passion
so i will push the passion aside
but when your ready
so am I
and our passions will be become one..
we will float to ecstacy
our little heaven on earth.

JanaiElizabeth.

who is this person you see
Janai Elizabeth
This is me
No more hiding
No more fake identity
exposing myself for the ones i love
take it or leave it
and if you leave theres no coming back
this is me
no more hiding
vunerable yet alive
scared yet free
this is me
no hiding behind another identity
this is me
Sometimes my hair isn't done
Sometimes my nail polish is chipped
but this is me
I cry because I can
I laugh because its funny
this is me
I put my into every relationship
into every friendship
i have battle wounds on my heart
from old lovers
backstabbing friends
and this is me
take it or leave
but if you leave there is no coming back
this is me
no more hiding behind another identity
Janai Elizabeth
for all the world to see.

Some Deep Ish.. [coming from a silly girl]

IF YOU WERE TO DIE TODAY..HOW DO YOU THINK YOU WOULD BE REMEMBERED?
The crazy thing is I dont even know the answer to my own question.
My friends would say I was fun, goofy, always offering advice, the outgoing one. The one who kept the party going. My church friends would say she was the one who had a strong faith and she always wanted to help others in their quest for faith. My parents would say she was good daugher.. although she slipped up every now and then she never gave up. She always respected our wishes and love us no matter what punishments we gave her. My teachers would say Janai was a social butterfly although at times she may have been lazy she was an amazing student always eager to learn. My boo would say Janai is one of the sweetest people I know she always cares and offers you all the love she has no matter what.
But truly in the end is that all I will be remembered for.. being funny and goofy, having faith, being a good daughter, being a good student, and loving people. Isn't that what Im suppose to do? In the bible it says love your neighbors. And that is what I like to think I have been doing although sometimes I slip I do.. No matter what people do to me I always love and care about them. But I feel as if I havent left a impact on the world. Im not saying I want to be this amazing celebrity but Im saying I want to leave a impact. I want to change someone's life. Something I fear more than death is being FORGOTTEN. I always want someone to be like hey I remember that girl..she was [insert here]! I don't want it to be like who in the hell is that? Being forgotten is almost like being without a purpose. If you are forgotten then what the point of you living? Today I realized that life is short and at any time God can blink and your life can taking away. Before you go dont you want to leave an impact on someone's life.
SO MAKE EACH DAY YOUR LAST.
SMILE A LITTLE
GIGGLE A LITTLE
LOVE ALOT
BE THE PERSON THAT CHANGES SOMEONE'S LIFE FOREVER.
What is the purpose of living if you don't make the world better for someone else?