Finally Giving In

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Coolie High - Camp Lo

Writing to Ease the Pain.

So it's been a two weeks since me and kels broke up. And I'm having the hardest time trying to get over her. She meant everything to me. I made that girl my life and she threw all that shit away. So I really thought me and her were way closer than she proved that we are. In just two weeks she has some new girl she loves.. Me and her were talking for 6 months and she didn't say she loved me at all. This who situation is blowing all shit outta me. Because I have people who love me but here I am still stuck on a bitch who doesnt care about anything I have to say. I'm trying very hard to contain my anger but its growing and turning into something way bigger than it has to be. If only she would just talk to me and we could be friends but no she isn't even willing to do that. So now what? I try to just suck it up and prentend as if she never exsited. But its taking a long time. And I don't how much longer i can bottle up these emotions.

Battle - Colbie Caillat

Corinne Bailey Rae

Call Me When You Get This - Corinne Bailey Rae




She is extremely under rated her lyrics are extremely poetic.

"have you ever loved the way that i have?
and i have often wondered who,
who could love you the way i do?
now i just want you to know, how i'm
touched deep in my soul just being with you."

"i just wanted to know what it was like, what's it really like to be loved?
these little volcanoes came as a surprise to me.
i never thought i could be this way.
and i have been cautious and i've tried to keep to myself, but who could love you the way i do?"

no surprises for me.

why am i not surprised

time to regroup and pick the remainder of my heart off the ground. why am i not surprised no one will ever feel the same. its whatever. im too strong for this bullshit. i have 65 days until im done with high school and quite frankly done with everyone. but just know i have poured my heart twice to you and it went in one ear and out the other. just know that you will NEVER find a girl who will love you or do the things i was willing to do for you. but again its whatever you made your decision and its fine with me.



-janai.

Old Lovas..=]

i finally said it. I finally said that phrase that I've been wanting to say for a long ass time. And i meant it from the bottom of my heart. I would have never had the courage to tell you if the whole "SATURDAY" event didn't happen. I'm so happy i said because its like a weight has been lifted and I can finally see where it goes from here.


But to you old lova
this is all in your hands. I told you what i want out of us. And I have mentioned that i will be apart of your life regardless of what my official title is. I know that I mean alot to you. You have always had my back no matter what i have done or been through. And I know I can trust you. The chemistry is there and everyone with eyes can see that. We have so much in common that we will never get bored with each other. I don't know about you but the attraction is also there. You are my everything and i can honestly say that without any kind of hesitation. So yea this is in your hands but don't let a good thing pass you by.

ily very much
-janai <3

Old Lovas - Dwele